Probation month... so sad...

I don't know what to say...
Our relationship is so fragile right now...
So sad...
Probability for us to fix our relationship is less than 50%

Yesterday I meet her to discuss about our relationship.

She wants to live her own life single.
(She has good points for that, really good points.)
I love her and want her to be by my side.
(I want to fix our relationship if it has any way to fix it.)

She asked me to decide...
She wants me to say yes for breaks up.
My heart says no because of our memories,
spending a lot times together...

But...

She still wants me to be her friend.
I cannot just be her friend because it's so 'janggal' when we meet later.
Dan 'kejanggalan' itu membuatkan jiwa aku sakit.
My life cannot live with that 'kejanggalan'.

After long hours of discussion, we came to a conclusion.
One probation month of separation.
No contact on whatsoever method.
Totally disconnected...

I don't know what will happen after this.
I hope that our relationship will come back as normal as before...
I hope that we will have our happy ending together...
Hmm...
Can we?